Lindsay Lohan - Confessions of a Broken Heart (Daughter to Father)
I wait, for the post man, to bring me your letter And I wait, for the good lord, to make me feel better And I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders Family and crises, that only grows older
Why’d you have to go? Why’d you have to go? Why’d you have to go?
Daughter to father mother Daughter to father mother I am broken, but I am hopin’ Daughter to father mother Daughter to father mother I am cryin’, a part of me’s dyin’ Cause these are, these are, the confessions, of a broken heart
And I wear, all your old clothes your old polo sweater I dream of another you One who would never Never leave me alone to pick up the pieces Daddy Mommy to hold me, that’s what I needed
So why’d you have to go? why’d you have to go? why’d you have to go?
Daughter to father mother Daughter to father mother I don’t know you But I still want to
Daughter to father mother Daughter to father mother Tell me the truth DID YOU EVER LOVE ME? Cause these are, these are, THE CONFESSIONS OF A BROKEN HEART, of a broken heart
You have been hurting. You have been moving through your daysslower, weighed down and broken by what life has bestowed uponyou. While you smile, there is pain clutching on to your heart andpulling you down. Your smile has been replaced with a resolute indifference. You are angry and scared. You’ve been pushing me away in my best efforts to comfort you and hold you tight. You aren’t yourself.
Do you remember that trip we took in the summer of 2009? You had just lost your job and your house, your cat and your car, a dear friend and even a glimmer of hope, and all that remained was your desire for something more. A promise of a brighter tomorrow. We traveled north and found ourselves on the banks of Lake Michigan on a cold day in July. The lake expanded farther than we could see, and as we stood there in the wind, hands clutched tightly, we prayed.
You closed your eyes and a tear fell and in that moment you chose life. You chose to push forward, and you chose to hold on to hope even when it didn’t feel possible. You were uncertain at first, but that decision pushed you toward a life that brought you joy and true happiness. A life that you couldn’t have known if you had made another choice. A life that still exists, though it’s hard to see through the unsettled dust of the chaos you’re fighting.
Friend, you are stronger than you believe.
Last night someone told you that you have an honesty and a compassion that others do not and that until you can love yourself, they will love you. You rolled your eyes and you dug your feet into the sand, but you tucked those words into your pocket, desperate to hold them as truth. You whispered the words to yourself through the night while you slept.
I believe in your strength. I believe that you have what it takes topull yourself out of this place. You are good enough. You are worth it. You are capable.
I will not leave you. You are not alone as you try your best to figure this out. Some days are harder than others. Some days life seems like too much, but know that I am here making the journey with you. When things feel too heavy, when it gets too dark, I’ll be there. I’ll carry you when you can’t carry yourself.
We will stand firm. We will choose hope. We will push through this. We will see a brighter day. Tomorrow the sun will rise and we will face the light and know that we chose an uncertain life, but a life filled with joys we don’t yet understand. We will walk strong and hold ourselves high. Though the pain still has a grasp on our heart, with each step toward hope, its grip will loosen, and we’ll persevere.
“I won’t give up on us, even if the skies get rough. We’ve got a lot to learn, but God knows we’re worth it.”